The sun set fire to the horizon
Playing loose and free
With the day’s events
Strumming lightly on the clouds
Preparing to rise
Elsewhere
On another sky’s dreams
My wardrobe was defenceless
As I set forth on my cull
To strip bare every hanger
To be decisive and not mull
Clothes littered every surface
Synthetic fibres filled the floor
From the vintage to the modern
As I emptied every drawer
Moth-riddled knits, of old assumptions
Threadbare, unravelling at the seams
No longer held the pure allure
Of their purchase-day, bought dreams
Jeans of different coloured denims
Bought to lift and shape and tuck
Promises broken like their zippers
Now in a pile and ready to chuck
Of all the glittering dresses
That did confidently project
A shiny armour of pretence
Their own bias, just circumspect
Stylish layers of anticipation
To wear close and to the skin
No longer touched, by hands of another
Are now lifeless and wearing thin
Too much material to handle
In garments for every event
Just a preoccupied illusion
Of my cloth-made discontent
Routes are unmapped
And the journey is long
But you’ll know where you’re going
And the places you belong
There’ll be choices you’ve made
That you wish to forget
And there’ll be others you retell
Just as oft as you’re let
Experiences will shape you
With their pattern and design
And when you join up the dots
You can rejoice and not whine
Long days can be followed
By nights spent awake
As you accept your own truth
And you stop being fake
There’s no curtain call here
In this show we call life
Stepping out of your way
Is how to live without strife
It’s for real, no rehearsals
It won’t always make sense
In a world full of players
Packed crowded and dense
But there’s this that I know
That I’ve seen on the faces
Of the people looking busy
As they rush to their places
There’s no fixed destination
I repeat, as it’s true
As your meaning in life
Is defined just by you
Slave to the rhythm
Slave to the mind
Slave to the fears
That riddle mankind
Slave to the caress
Slave to the touch
Slave to the feel
That exquisite crutch
Slave to the ego
Slave to the goal
Slave to the doubt
That unconscious toll
Slave to the minutes
Slave to the clock
Slave to the time
That mental gridlock
I loved you so deeply
I loved without shame
I loved all your theories
I loved without blame
I loved in totality
I loved you with relish
I loved how you thought
I loved every blemish
I loved how you held me
I loved how we shared
I loved your good looks
I loved that you cared
I loved with abandon
I loved with my heart
I loved how you touched me
I loved how we’d impart
I loved what we stood for
I loved how we danced
I loved that you loved me
I loved how you enhanced
I loved holding your hand
I loved smelling your scent
I loved sharing a bed
I loved with honest intent
I loved all our stories
I loved all that I learnt
I loved you my husband
I loved all that we weren’t
You cannot blame
hypocrisy on those
Who cannot listen
to their own truths
You cannot hold someone
accountable to their actions
Until you can be
accountable for your own
You cannot see
what is in plain sight
If you vision is contaminated
by your own appearance
You cannot claim to be
a philanthropist
When giving accompanies
a powerful motive